So it’s 5 a.m., and I’ve been up for 4 and a half hours, leaving
me with only three hours of sleep for the night. A big part of the problem with my brand of
mental illness is the insomnia. I take
meds to help me sleep, but it seems that the Abilify is counteracting
them. This leaves me tired, cranky, and hungry
for all the wrong things.
The worst part about it is I can’t shut my brain off. It’s running a million miles an hour about
everything. My sick kids: one with a
yucky stomach bug, the other with asthma issues, not being able to sleep, why I
can’t sleep, my weight, the fact that I won’t make it to the gym again because
I’ll be home with two sick kids, the fact that I won’t be able to nap because I’ll
be home with two sick kids…. The list goes on and on. It’s freaking ridiculous.
I’m calling my doctor tomorrow and getting off Abilify. It’s disrupting my life. And I know from experience that you need to be
in charge of your own mental health.
