Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Yesterday morning I was literally smacked upside the head by Karma. My wedding candle and engagement picture dropped on my head after I stumbled and fell headfirst into my buffet and hutch set (I've got the concussion to prove it, oh and a lovely scrape and bruise on my arm). The picture was of me 100 lbs lighter. How gorgeous I looked without those hundred pounds and ten years! And how did I get there? Weight Watchers and Curves. Now I can't do Curves cause I'm locked in at my gym, But I can be more consistent with my exercise. And because right before Christmas I learned that BCBS will not be covering my gastric sleeve surgery (bastards). I am going back to my old remedy - Weight Watchers. I've already started eating more fresh fruits and veggies, which are free in terms of points or so I've heard. But I join Saturday And I am so Geeked about it I can hardly stand it.
So stay tuned and we will see what I can do!
Thursday, October 4, 2012
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
So my kids are back in school, so it was time to get serious, so serious that I enlisted the help of my doctor and got a referral to a different surgeon. I'm now going through the red tape to get the gastric sleeve procedure done. Unlike the band it's permanent, And it's as good thing too. I'm trying to eat lowish carb to prepare for the surgery. After I have it, I'll have a stomach the size of a ball park bun-length hot-dog.
And then guess what? I pulled the tendon on the inner side of my right knee and am on one crutch, hobbling around and can't exercise. How did I do this. I did a karate kick in water aerobics. Actually, it was a Jacky chan - a jumping jack with a karate kick. Lovely, simply lovely.
Friday, March 9, 2012
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
So last week, I started Abilify, and I don’t know if I’m just getting used to it or what, But I gained back t5 of the 12 pounds that I lost, though it could be water weight. It’s so frustrating because I have been doing so well on my plan. I had a cheat day Saturday and was only over by 23 calories. I was at the gym 4 times last week and two days this week and it’s only Wednesday morning. I have no idea what to do about it either.
On the plus side the hallucinations I have been having have lessened considerably, but the other problems , including insomnia, (I have been up since 2 a.m. – it’s 5 now), are worse. How much time do I give the medicine? I know we can do something about the insomnia, but if I’m going to have weight gain is it really worth it? Can I live with the hallucinations?
I realize psychiatry isn’t an exact science and everybody is different, but I wish we could find that magic cocktail that would take away the problems and let me live a normal life. I want to be healthy. I want to be functional. I want to be a size 14 again. Is that really too much to ask?